I was born in 1931, and began to go to elementary school when I was six years old. Completing my elementary education after seven years, I attended a junior high school. My family raised me in a Catholic system of education. Afterwards, I joined the Anglican church. Finally, I became an Anglo-Catholic. During all these conversions, I observed the same thing. Christianity had dissociated itself from man’s normal daily life long ago, and had become reminiscent of an attirement that was worn only on Sundays and kept in a wooden case only for this purpose. People could not find what they were looking for in the Christian religion.

The Christian religion was trying to attach people to the church by means of lights of various colours, images, smells of incense, pleasant music, and a variety of glorious ceremonies and litanies performed for saints. Yet all these efforts fell short of attracting people. For the Christian religion concerned itself only with legendary subjects and therefore evinced no interest in what was going on without the church. Consequently, I developed a profound hatred towards Christianity, and finally decided to give a test to Communism and Fascism each, which were being propagated with sequinned advertisements.

When I attempted Communism I was happy because I believed that it rejected class differences. As time went by, I faced the awful truth: let alone rejecting class differences, Communism was a totalitarian regime wherein people led a life of slavery, a small minority inflicted all sorts of cruelty and brutality on the others, no one had the right to protest, and any sort of objection, rightful as it might be, would incur a penalty, which meant, more often than not, being sentenced to death. Stalin is a good example concerning the real face of Communism. Upon this, I shifted from Communism to Fascism.

My first impression in Fascism was its discipline and order, which I liked very much. However, Fascists were self-conceited people. They despised all people and all races outside of their community. Here, too, cruelty, suffering, injustice and oppression prevailed. A couple of months sufficed to make me loathe Fascism intensely. For Mosley[1], in Britain, Hitler[2], in Germany, and Mussolini[3], in Italy, were the exemplary models of stark terror and ruthless and despotic cruelty. Nevertheless, I could not give up Fascism, for there was no other alternative left.

I was desperately writhing in a state of distress, when I came across a periodical captioned The Islamic Review in a bookstore. I scanned the book. I still cannot understand why I bought that book, which cost me two shillings[4] and six pennies and was too expensive for me. I thought, “I have wasted my money. Perhaps the contents of this book are mere twaddles that would not be
worth a penny, like those Communist and Fascist follies.” Yet, as I read on, it began to capture my attention, which soon developed into utter amazement. I read the magazine once again, and again.

So Islam was a perfect religion which accummulated in itself all the best aspects of Christianity and of the other ideologies ending in ‘ism’. Despite my poverty, I subscribed to the periodical. A couple of months later I decided to embrace Islam. Since that day I have held fast to my new religion with my both hands.  I hope to begin studying Arabic as soon as I enter university. For the time being I am studying Latin, French and Spanish, and reading ‘The Islamic Review’.

[1] Sir Oswald Mosley (1896-1980), British right-wing politician, an MP from 1918 to 1931, and the founder of the British Union of Fascists.
[2] Adolf Hitler (1889-1945), the leader of German Nazi Party. He was born in Austria. His ideal was to develop a pure German race.
[3] Benito Mussolini (1883-1945), (known as Il Duce), Italian Fascist Dictator. After the Second World War, he was killed by the Italians.
[4] Until 1971, British coin, worth one-twentieth a pound, or twelve old pennies; five pennies as of today.


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